They have an alliance here, Fitz, which is part of why I was worried when I saw what you said about Klaus being the one to tell you. Thankfully, I already told my friends that it was me who told you about Damon so it's fine.
[Peter shakes his head, swallowing and sliding a hand behind his neck. He regrets it deeply now. He still can picture how betrayed Elena looked when he told her. He still doesn't have any moral answers to such a complicated situation, but he knows he should have kept it to himself. He's too emotional sometimes. He was so angry and worried that it took over. It gets the best of him sometimes]
Is Klaus okay with you lying about how you found out?
[Peter closes his eyes, letting out a low, low breath, even as he closes his eyes tightly. His fingers drift back into the strands of his hair.] Fix what? I still don't get what needs fixing.
Does he know anything else I told you? I need to make sure I didn't inadvertently affect the alliance they all have. I don't think so, cause I'm not like an official part of it, but. [Bonnie told him about Klaus in confidence too, wanting to protect him, to make sure he avoided and stayed away from him. The words just stumbled out of his mouth in this desperate attempt to connect and to show him he could- they could talk about it together, and that Peter's words would come from a place of understanding as he'd been through something similar. He can't be the reason it even remotely shakes after they've all maintained such a strong alliance for months now, and he knows how important it is to have that.]
Klaus can mitigate the potential for damage. Given what Damon's capable of undertaking, more people ought to know how precariously placed you are in proximity to them. I told him what was done to you as an issue of safety. [Except he's almost positive that this is the sort of safety that will leave Peter more cross than he was when this started.]
[It's somehow not what Peter was expecting. He'd worried Fitz had mentioned the history of stuff that Peter had vaguely mentioned when it comes to Klaus. He didn't expect that Fitz would tell him the one thing that he hasn't told anyone else other than those involved after expressing how uncomfortable he is with Klaus. He tries to make it anger that he latches hold of, but there's something else, and it hurts.
He'd already been terrified. The last time he got involved in science when he shouldn't have, Peter set a bunch of lizards out against the city, killed someone, ruined someone else's life. Someone who took science into his own hands to reverse what had happened to him. This time he's nearly put his friends in danger, because he said too much to what he- he thought of as a friend.]
There's no damage, and there are no problems with my safety. Why aren't you listening to me? [He slides his hand behind his neck, closing his eyes against the stupid burning that's abruptly there. His fingertips dig in so hard to his neck that it hurts.] Why the hell did you tell him after I- after I told you I wasn't comfortable with him?
[He didn't say those words exactly, but everything he'd said implied that he didn't trust the man and knew he'd done bad things to people he cares about. His fingers spear through the strands of his hair, which is- they're already a mess.]
I told you what happened in confidence, because I trusted you and I thought it'd help you to open up about what you went through so you could see there's someone who understands and who cares and who has been compelled before. You don't even understand the situation or why it happened, and it was a long time ago.
[Fitz knows exactly how it happened. He'd been afraid. He'd been afraid for himself and for the people who matter, and that's always where he's most vulnerable. He'd set the world on fire if it meant saving the people he loves.
But now that's brought them here, to this moment. Peter is angrier than before, and Fitz has no way to diffuse it. He needs Jemma to soften the edges off the situation. She always knows what to say and when to say it. He's clumsier. He'll try to speak, but he knows, intimately, that he'll only make things worse.]
Clearly, I was mistaken. And I'm sorry.
[It's not enough. He knows that too. But he also knows that he'd probably confide in Klaus again if given a second chance. He won't apologize for making sure someone is looking after Peter.]
[Peter didn't tell anyone what Klaus did to Fitz even if it might have made it more understandable why he would have confided in him about what happened with Damon. It's deeply personal. It's a hard thing for him to talk about, and he has to imagine it's hard for Fitz too, and he didn't want- It wasn't his place to give something like that of Fitz's away. Even if Fitz trusts Klaus, he should have known Peter doesn't and would never be comfortable with that, and he knows Fitz will tell Klaus more in the future regardless of what Peter wants or how Peter feels.
He thought they were friends, but they're not.
His eyes burn. His voice is tight. He wipes at his face. It's a long time before he replies.]
I quit.
[He should have learned from the first time trying to follow after his father's footsteps. He's not his father.
There's no point, Fitz. [His eyes burn harder. His voice cracks.]
You don't listen to me. I almost made a huge dangerous mess, because I trusted you and betrayed the confidence of other people I care about to do so. But you don't trust me too. And you told Klaus something that's very personal to me after I told you I'm uncomfortable with him. So how am I supposed to trust you again?
I quit. It's better that way.
[And with that, Peter cuts communication. He's going to have to talk to klaus, but he needs to wait until- until his emotions have settled before he does that.]
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[If he's to be judged by the company he keeps, that information does nothing to lessen his anxiety.]
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[Peter shakes his head, swallowing and sliding a hand behind his neck. He regrets it deeply now. He still can picture how betrayed Elena looked when he told her. He still doesn't have any moral answers to such a complicated situation, but he knows he should have kept it to himself. He's too emotional sometimes. He was so angry and worried that it took over. It gets the best of him sometimes]
Is Klaus okay with you lying about how you found out?
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[Because it was his idea. But oversharing is what started this mess. He'd hate to fall back into that trouble. this quickly]
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He said he'd fix it if I was honest with him.
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Does he know anything else I told you? I need to make sure I didn't inadvertently affect the alliance they all have. I don't think so, cause I'm not like an official part of it, but. [Bonnie told him about Klaus in confidence too, wanting to protect him, to make sure he avoided and stayed away from him. The words just stumbled out of his mouth in this desperate attempt to connect and to show him he could- they could talk about it together, and that Peter's words would come from a place of understanding as he'd been through something similar. He can't be the reason it even remotely shakes after they've all maintained such a strong alliance for months now, and he knows how important it is to have that.]
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He'd already been terrified. The last time he got involved in science when he shouldn't have, Peter set a bunch of lizards out against the city, killed someone, ruined someone else's life. Someone who took science into his own hands to reverse what had happened to him. This time he's nearly put his friends in danger, because he said too much to what he- he thought of as a friend.]
There's no damage, and there are no problems with my safety. Why aren't you listening to me? [He slides his hand behind his neck, closing his eyes against the stupid burning that's abruptly there. His fingertips dig in so hard to his neck that it hurts.] Why the hell did you tell him after I- after I told you I wasn't comfortable with him?
[He didn't say those words exactly, but everything he'd said implied that he didn't trust the man and knew he'd done bad things to people he cares about. His fingers spear through the strands of his hair, which is- they're already a mess.]
I told you what happened in confidence, because I trusted you and I thought it'd help you to open up about what you went through so you could see there's someone who understands and who cares and who has been compelled before. You don't even understand the situation or why it happened, and it was a long time ago.
[audio] just leave me here to die
But now that's brought them here, to this moment. Peter is angrier than before, and Fitz has no way to diffuse it. He needs Jemma to soften the edges off the situation. She always knows what to say and when to say it. He's clumsier. He'll try to speak, but he knows, intimately, that he'll only make things worse.]
Clearly, I was mistaken. And I'm sorry.
[It's not enough. He knows that too. But he also knows that he'd probably confide in Klaus again if given a second chance. He won't apologize for making sure someone is looking after Peter.]
[audio] me first
He thought they were friends, but they're not.
His eyes burn. His voice is tight. He wipes at his face. It's a long time before he replies.]
I quit.
[He should have learned from the first time trying to follow after his father's footsteps. He's not his father.
All he does is create messes.]
[audio] TOO LATE I'M ALREADY WRECKED
Peter, no. This isn't -- we can still discuss this further.
[Please don't leave.]
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You don't listen to me. I almost made a huge dangerous mess, because I trusted you and betrayed the confidence of other people I care about to do so. But you don't trust me too. And you told Klaus something that's very personal to me after I told you I'm uncomfortable with him. So how am I supposed to trust you again?
I quit. It's better that way.
[And with that, Peter cuts communication. He's going to have to talk to klaus, but he needs to wait until- until his emotions have settled before he does that.]