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Mostly it's just a lot of taunting.
Reminding me of...things that happened.
Telling me how worthless I am.

I'm sorry

I understand if you don't want to talk about it.

It's fine.
Kinda like going to my parents for family dinner, only my brother's not around to be the golden boy.

[Self-deprecating humor, that's the way to handle it, right?]

is there anything I can do to help?

Not really.
But thanks. Honestly. Means a lot.

[More than he thinks he can properly put into words. The fact Fitz is talking to him at all is surprising in its own right. That he even wants to help make things easier for him, too? Well, that's downright miraculous.]

What happened wasn't your fault. I hope you know that.

That's not true.
I was warned. I never should have trusted words from a faceless, nameless source.

You had faith that there might be some good out there

that's not a bad thing

Doesn't feel much like a good thing, either.
It's not exactly the first time I feel for something like that.
Maybe one day I'll learn from it, huh?

If you figure out how to stop making that mistake, let me know

I have a heard time learning the same thing.

Yeah, I'll pass the secret along, if I figure it out.

[Even though he'd never wish it on anyone, he's kind of glad to know he isn't the only one, either.]

it's always the ones you trust the most who do the worst damage.
The ones you're happiest to call "friend".

I'm sorry you've had to go through it. It's a terrible feeling.

Don't I know it.
The hardest case for me...he was more like a father. Made it worse, you know? Because my parents suck, and this guy was...I thought...everything they weren't. But I was just a target, and a loose end.

He was here for awhile.
Different version but same guy.
Timelines get complicated.

Not your fault. You didn't do it.
You've been a friend to me for most of the time I've been here.

Mine was like a brother. He was ridiculous, but he always made it a point to protect me. I don't have any brothers. It was nice to be family. And then I got in the way of something he cared about more than me.

Mine was here for a while too. It's been a while since he's last surfaced. Possible that Wonderland's sent him home.

I'm not sure how I feel about our lives paralleling that way, dude.

Fingers crossed they're both gone and not coming back.

That's what Caitlin used to tell me. That I reminded her of you.

Before you were here, of course.

And before she was.

Well. You know.

Yeah...

[There's a pause. He's pretty positive of the answer before he even asks but...]

I'm guessing you haven't talked to her lately or anything...
Or heard anything about her?

[He hasn't seen or heard from her himself, but he has been actively avoiding her just yet. A confirmation about how she's doing would be nice, if there was one to be had at all..]

She and I don't speak.

I'm sure you understand.

Yeah.
Of course.

of course

that's why i'd understand if you thought that talking to me is a bit much, all things considered.

It was. For awhile, but...
The evil doppelganger thing? Not really new for me.
If I got around Harry having the face of a guy who shoved his hand through my heart in another timeline...I can get over this, too.

[Oops, he was pretty cavalier just then about dying that one time, huh? Sorry, Fitz. But don't worry. He won't push himself to do more than he can handle. He isn't exactly in the biggest of rushes to go grab a beer together or something, but this? This is fine. He can handle this.]

I'd appreciate it if you'd stop having my life experiences. It's a bit odd.

Mine tried to drown me. Were you here when the mansion was flooded last? It was quite a lot like that experience.

I've not been able to forgive him. I think he'd like me to.

Well, I promise I'm definitely not trying to do it on purpose, dude.
These aren't exactly life goals I wanted to achieve

Yeah, I was here.
I hate that Events based on our memories.
It just adds so much insult to injury

Fuck that.
Seriously.
Guy tries to kill you and wants you to still be friends?
Eobard didn't bother trying that route anymore once the truth was out, but he insisted he'll always be my mentor and continue teaching me lessons.
He's a creep, sounds like yours isn't much better.

[There's a pause, but...nope. This is a topic he has Many Feelings on and he just can't let it go.]

You literally owe him nothing, least of all forgiveness
Don't let him ever put you in a position to feel like you do
He lost the right to ask anything out of you when he tried to kill you.

Said he thought it would teach me survival skills. That he knew I'd make it through.

He's a psychopath. Sounds like yours is too. You don't need to forgive him either.

We've lived odd lives, haven't we?

That's just sick.
He told me I have a "great and powerful destiny" and basically patted himself on the back for being the one to get me on the path toward it
Kinda fucked with me for awhile, because who wants to realize a destiny set by a psycho?

Never gonna happen
[That doesn't mean things won't be Forever Complicated with any version of Eobard that might show up, however.]

To put it simply, yeah.

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