[Fitz has no idea how many times Cisco has tried in the past month or so to talk to him. Tried being the key word. He never managed to actually send any of the messages he typed up.
It's late. Too late to be trying to text anyone and actually expect them to be awake. Which is, perhaps, exactly why he chose after 2am to send it in the first place.
Fitz is no stranger to late nights, he knows that, but without a huge project hanging over his head--as far as Cisco knows, he's not touched anything science-shaped lately, but knowing things would require talking to him at all--maybe he's asleep like a normal person right now.
[Fitz doesn't sleep well on normal nights lately. It's worse right now, with the fear that an angry vampire might come scraping her claws against his door at night. He's up, even if he doesn't want to be.]
I miss [No. That's probably weird. They were really more colleagues than friends, mostly, right? That's....not necessarily true for Cisco, but he suddenly feels really unsure about anything about it on Fitz's side.]
It's been awhile. [Understatement.] What are you up to these days?
[More than he thinks he can properly put into words. The fact Fitz is talking to him at all is surprising in its own right. That he even wants to help make things easier for him, too? Well, that's downright miraculous.]
Don't I know it. The hardest case for me...he was more like a father. Made it worse, you know? Because my parents suck, and this guy was...I thought...everything they weren't. But I was just a target, and a loose end.
He was here for awhile. Different version but same guy. Timelines get complicated.
Not your fault. You didn't do it. You've been a friend to me for most of the time I've been here.
Mine was like a brother. He was ridiculous, but he always made it a point to protect me. I don't have any brothers. It was nice to be family. And then I got in the way of something he cared about more than me.
Mine was here for a while too. It's been a while since he's last surfaced. Possible that Wonderland's sent him home.
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It's late. Too late to be trying to text anyone and actually expect them to be awake. Which is, perhaps, exactly why he chose after 2am to send it in the first place.
Fitz is no stranger to late nights, he knows that, but without a huge project hanging over his head--as far as Cisco knows, he's not touched anything science-shaped lately, but knowing things would require talking to him at all--maybe he's asleep like a normal person right now.
That's the hope anyway.]
Hey.
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hi
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is this misdirected?
you don't have to
if you need more time i understand
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I meant to send it.
To you.
I miss[No. That's probably weird. They were really more colleagues than friends, mostly, right? That's....not necessarily true for Cisco, but he suddenly feels really unsure about anything about it on Fitz's side.]It's been awhile. [Understatement.] What are you up to these days?
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bit stressful
harder without gadgets
but you? you're all right?
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Yeah. Better than I was.
Started getting messages again sometime last week.
They're dicks.
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I'll handle it.
They're incorrigible. But they're just messages. They can be ignored.
You're not listening, are you?
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But if you're sure.
Yeah, I know. I haven't answered them or anything.
[Ouch. Deserved, though.]
Sometimes it's hard to ignore.
But no. They're just words on a mirror.
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And it's good that you didn't. They can't harm us if we don't let them in.
[Said the pot to the kettle.]
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It sounds so simple when you put it like that
It's not, though.
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Reminding me of...things that happened.
Telling me how worthless I am.
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I understand if you don't want to talk about it.
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Kinda like going to my parents for family dinner, only my brother's not around to be the golden boy.
[Self-deprecating humor, that's the way to handle it, right?]
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is there anything I can do to help?
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But thanks. Honestly. Means a lot.
[More than he thinks he can properly put into words. The fact Fitz is talking to him at all is surprising in its own right. That he even wants to help make things easier for him, too? Well, that's downright miraculous.]
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I was warned. I never should have trusted words from a faceless, nameless source.
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that's not a bad thing
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It's not exactly the first time I feel for something like that.
Maybe one day I'll learn from it, huh?
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I have a heard time learning the same thing.
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[Even though he'd never wish it on anyone, he's kind of glad to know he isn't the only one, either.]
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The ones you're happiest to call "friend".
I'm sorry you've had to go through it. It's a terrible feeling.
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The hardest case for me...he was more like a father. Made it worse, you know? Because my parents suck, and this guy was...I thought...everything they weren't. But I was just a target, and a loose end.
He was here for awhile.
Different version but same guy.
Timelines get complicated.
Not your fault. You didn't do it.
You've been a friend to me for most of the time I've been here.
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Mine was here for a while too. It's been a while since he's last surfaced. Possible that Wonderland's sent him home.
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Fingers crossed they're both gone and not coming back.
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